||[Jan. 7th, 2010|01:01 am]
recently have been down and more down
i am feeling more and more unsure about what i am working for
i have alot of aims but sometimes it alarm me suddenly which kind of life i am awaiting for actually.
It is hard for me to make a decision due to many of the restrictions and obstacles in life.
Today i went for movie with francine and janel. The movie was fantastic and awesome
When the whole movie end, and i saw lots of girls dress nicely for party at night or having happy night movie.
I am starting to wonder what is happening in my life, and what i actually really want.
Feeling envy of these girls because much of what they are happy and enjoying, i not at all enjoyed it at all.
But at the same time, it keep on questioning me if i could be able to take the night life and stuff
I am tired and tired and wondering and wondering